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I'm finally back ! I was away because of school and also my emotions went upside down for the past few days . Well , lesson to be learnt , I guess . I finally know the reason why my mother asked me not to fall in love with a guy when you are still in school . The feelings are hard to overcome heh . I had to admit , it was thrilling , it's not something someone like me experienced . But when you start to hope more than that , you get in trouble . You starts to doubt , make assumptions and do whatever that's unnecessary . After that , you'll try your hardest to make things last while deep inside yourself you know it wouldn't last . That's alm

You asked me to have faith in you when you doubted me . I wonder if you are out of your mind or something when you said that . I think you don't know how I treat those I don't trust . It's something like - "before you ask for something , think whether you worth it or not" . I had faith in you without caring whether you deserve it or not . I simply believed because I wanted you in my life . Now that you've asked me that , it's like "Wow , Madelyn , you didn't really use your brain when you trust someone huh ?" . My trust is something from the heart , not from the brain . If you ever asked me to have faith in you again , this is what I'm goin

"Neglected" my journal xD I didn't really mean to do that though . The reasons why : 1) Busy with CNY preparations . 2) Busy . 3) I don't know what to talk about . Anyway , it's 4:51 am right now . And CNY eve is today CNY is TOMORROW . I'm excited XD . *cough* In less than 2 hours time , I'll be pretending being waken by my mother and go to market with my parents . Yes , market . To buy goods to cook for the "Reunion Dinner" . Sigh , my mother is harsh towards everyone in this family . How can she expect to get fresh stuff from the market on the eve of CNY . Not if those hawkers are all Chinese . Man , I don't know if it's just pure luc